Cuz It's A Bittersweet Symphony.

Oh my lord, it's October.

I'm in a bit of a frenzy but, it's nowhere near fine.
The year is almost over and I haven't drawn the line.
(You can thank Scott for making me want to write poetry..)

Quick tid-bits should do it.
-My first article of the year is about frozen yogurt. I pitched the idea but, I had a strong doubt I was going to write about it. Now, I'm here talking about the cons of yogurt.
-I LOVE having cable in my room. If I had a mini-fridge, I don't think i'll ever need to leave my room again. [:
-"I'm not scared of lions, and tigers, and bears, but I'm scared of loving you." JAZMINE SULLIVAN! I've been on such a high on her music over the last two weeks! The song could be about heartbreak but, she'd have the ability to make it sound so damn beautiful!
-SENIOR QUOTES AND BABY PICTURES DUE TOMORROW! Ahh, this is the last picture i'll have in my high school yearbook. It's mind-boggling! To your surprise, I used poetry as my senior quote, CLICHE I know. I was aiming for "And none for Gretchen Weiners, bye." from Mean Girls but, I don't think people will get it. :p
-I find the conversations Amanda, Yolanda, and I have during Journalism NEEDS to be recorded one of these days! Amanda is... in her own little world half of the time but she's so relatable! Yolanda was too.... blunt for my liking but, she's really down to Earth! It's so bad how I'm so quick to judge but then again, at least I revoke the judgment with a positive remark a bit later. So, I'm good right? [:
-THEOPHILUS LONDON + CHRISTIAN RICH + LYKKE LI + MIIKE SNOW + AMANDA BLANK + THUNDERHEIST + PETER, BJORN, and JOHN = FCUKING EAR SEX! They're blowing my funking mind! It's not to be joked upon. It'll prove disastrous if you mess with my taste in music.
-I need to effing find tickets for BLINK 182!!
-I'm always in a good mood around this time of night.
-I hate how I've been so pissed off with the world lately. Actually, most of my negative emotions are towards a few people... very few, I really mean it. This is indirectly bashing you guys, just so you know. :p
-SOOO EXCITED for October!

1. October 3; Eagle Rock Music Festival/ LA's 41st Anniversary
2. October 10; SAT's/ BLINK 182
3. October 17; Binhi Membership Meeting/ CWS' Museum Tour of the California Science Center/ HORROR NIGHTS AT UNIVERSAL!!!!!
4. October 24; SoCal Volleyball Tourney!!!
5. October 31; GEM: ONE MISSION

I'm soo sure I'm going to be doing waaay more than just that in between those Saturdays. So, get ready for descriptive blogs about my bipolar days. [:

Oh and btw, SHOTS by LMFAO is totally keeping me up as I finish up my hw tonight. <3

this blog is OVAH.

fin.

Why 'Ello Gov'nah?

Oggi, ho fumato la maniera troppo di mi sono aspettato. Non preoccuparsi, non era la pentola. Tre cerchi di sbuffare pesante, soffiare, e succhiare. Non ho sentito una cosa. Paragonato agli altri, ho multato perfettamente. Riguarda tre ore dopo ed ora, sono un pezzetto stordito. Anche, ho sentito un pezzetto triste per lasciare il mio amico dietro. Ho chiesto scusa a lui ma, non penso che voglia un. Non importa, mi ha un brutto viaggio di colpa. Oltre a il mio amico, era oggi un buono giorno. Dovrei fermare usando il computer ora a causa di un minore stordito sillaba.

LA FINE.

-dom.


IN ENGLISH: I've decided to quit choir. My parents can't really handle it. It's too much commitment for me. Going to school an hour earlier, paying for my uniforms, practices twice a week (on our own time) which don't include zero period, fund raising that is a bit over priced, and a few other minor things. I want to stay in choir but then again, I can't because it's too much work for one activity. If I didn't have my work load, then I'd continue with choir. Also, if I had a car, I'd still be in choir. Oh well.

THE END.

ANNOYED ANNOYED ANNOYED.

SO EFFING ANNOYED. please, don't mess with me while I'm on my rag. I'm a walking, talking bag of sh!tty emotions.

THANK YOU.

fin.

Gloooooomy.

Not the weather.

I've been this emotional train wreck these last few days. Maybe it's just the unfortunate events that happened to befall me but, I don't think it's just that. Things just... don't feel right. If you've seen me over the last week or so, I've been really... quiet? I refuse to talk these days because if I do talk, I'm just gonna want to babble about my non-existent problems. Mhm. Maybe it's because I'm PMSing? UGH. I hate uncertainty! I hate feeling like there's a hole in me! I need clarity! I need something to feel right.

Besides that, we switched from Time Warner Cable to Direct TV. Big whoop? MHM. GREAT WHOOP. I have every movie channel Direct TV owns! WIN!

okay, this is gonna stay short.

FIN.

ToTop Off My Day On A Bad Note:

As I was telling my dad NOT to remove the plug to my speakers, he does it anyways, which further aggravates me. SO THEN, as I was hooking up the plug for my speakers to my computer, I notice that my speakers don't work. I check to see what's wrong. I look at the plug and it's broken. I look at the outlet in my computer, the part of the plug is stuck in there. I can't remove it without totally breaking the speaker outlet. SO now, my only option of listening to music through my computer is ONLY using the speakers on my laptop. THANKS DAD for ruining my day. -____'-

Another thing, I really don't like the month of September. It's the month where my allergies are at it's peak. Whenever a season changes or is about to change, I get allergies. However, this time, it's different. The package comes with a headache and constant sneezing. I counted how many times I could sneeze in a row. I got up to 14. Amazing right? UGH. I hate how I can't really taste food. I hate how my ears are clogged. I hate how this is happening to me NOW! UGH.

I'm annoyed.

FIN.


EDIT.

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Because I was such a stupid ass, my speakers on my laptop don't work PERIOD. ]:
I'm gonna cry. I hope that the sound outlet on a computer are replaceable because if they aren't, I'm going to DIE and that's in a literal sense. ;[ ;[ ;[ ;[ ;[ ;[ ;[;[ ;[;[ ;[

Being The Jerk That I Am,

I'm blasting my music to compete with the spanish service that is currently being held in my neighbor's garage. Their garage is right next to my room. FML.

-I have a feeling that being back at school is gonna make me gain a LOT of weight. I lost a couple of pounds over the summer due to my handy dandy bike but, I don't really have the time (and I guess, energy) to do so anymore. Meh..
-I really want the Beatles Rockband. I just wanted to get that out there.
-I just noticed how I haven't used my Holga yet. ]: I wanna start using it sometime soon before it starts collecting up dust (not that is already does.)
-I love girl days without confrontation between siblings. Whenever I hang out with certain people, I get a two for one deal. I have to deal with not one person but, also their sibling. I get caught in between sibling rivalries with each person expecting me to join their side. Howevah, I didn't have to do that this time. THANK GOODNESS. It turned out more pleasant than what I originally thought. I just hope that they keep this up a little longer. I like the silence of fighting.
-Paramore is a new found love of mine. <3
-As for boys, I'm keeping things slow. I don't want to get into any committed "things" with boys whom I'm not certain about. I've been getting mixed signals for the last month and a half and I still don't know what my final choice is. Also, I feel like I'm going in circles with everything. Remember, I give advice but I don't always use it. Mehh...

Anyways, I have nothing more to say.

FIN.

Somethings Up, I Know It.

You know the deal.

-I now remember why I love Monday nights: Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill. <3 Thank you for keeping me sane despite the fact that I'm usually a mess during Monday mornings.
-I love having the opportunity to leave campus right after 5th period. It's pretty... ugh... cool?
-College visitations! So, I basically had a one on one with Amherst's representative. I was one out of two people who went to the meeting today. I'm pretty excited about applying to East Coast colleges/universities but, I don't think that my mom is gonna be such a big fan of me wanting to go to a Liberal Arts college. meeehh...
-I knew I was too quick to judge. After my interviews with Yolanda, I feel like she's such an amazing person. My impression on her was that she was too blunt and nonetheless annoying. However, she's waaaay deeper and nicer than I thought. Her aspirations are so humble and honest that I WANT to help her with anything she wants to do. Ahh, I love staff profiles.
-The school year just started and I'm already sleep deprived. Oh maaan.

okay, this is short.

FIN.

IRRITATED.

I hate how my dad does this every single time! I don't get it sometimes. My dad is home pretty much all the time, minus the time he takes when he runs errands. I don't understand how he forgets to pay the bills sometimes. It pissed the eff out of me. I don't have internet for the next three days because of his ass. He may not see it but, I need the internet. It's not for the sole use of social connections and sh!t like that but, I actually use it for work and school. It's really useful with the other things that I do in life and he seriously thinks that all I do online is go on Facebook. UGH. Now, I have to resort to paying 5 bucks every two hours to use the internet at Starbucks. But whatever, at least it gets me away from my dad for a bit. He just doesn't get it sometimes.

On the other hand, my last first day of high school has been completed. I'm still in awe at the fact that we're the oldest kids in school. It was a weird sight not seeing the class of 09 there. Nelieve or not, I really miss them. Anyways, the new Journalism staff is exciting me. I'm really looking forward to all the newbies along with our old staff. It's also pretty cool how Seniors take up half the class. Crazy right? Anyways, I gotta say this for my sake but, I don't know if I want to do Zero period concert choir. It wasn't necessarily a waste of my time but, I think we could have done so much more in that hour than we suspected. Also, Ms. Lee wants us to be in the choir room by 6:55. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?!?! I really don't want to do something that will eat away at my sleep. Despite my chill schedule, I don't know how the work load is so waking up at 5:30 every effing morning isn't my kind of thing. UGH.

Anyways, I don't wanna kill my battery typing this thing.

This blog is OVAH.

-dom.

All I Have To Say Is...

I LOVE DISNEYLAND. <3
more pictures tomorrow.

this blog is OVAH.

-d0m.

Mixed Signals.

Here comes the bullet points:

• I loved how today planned out. I pretty much hung out with a very unlikely group. It consisted of Susan T., Janki D., Christine M., Grace H., Josh K., and Kristina T. It's a RANDOM group of people that I would never see myself associating myself with at one time but, it was surprisingly fun. Susan, Christine, Grace, Janki, and I used to go to the same elementary school. Ever since then, we've had small hang outs such as tonight. However, I haven't hung out with them in what, 3 or 4 years? AND since they bumped into Josh and Kristina at Vons, they decided to join us. So, it was interesting for the most part. The converstions were unexpected, really. I got to listen to stories from all the different groups in my class. It's funny how things play out like that. We played a few rounds of DDR, watched Grace and Janki do a few cheer tricks, and basically hung out. You can say I'm looking forward to our next hang out. I just hope things stay as chill as it is now when school starts.... that's not likely. ahahaha.
• It's really sad how I'm so addicted to Farmville. I think I should have mentioned this in earlier posts but seriously, I'm hooked on it. Ahhh, this is so lame. My addiction to Farmville happened at the WRONG time because school starts in a couple of days.
• I hate my dad's logic sometimes. He thinks everything I do is somehow dangerous. Biking is considered dangerous under the right circumstances but! my dad is being really stupid. Biking to my aunt's house, which is 4 miles away is considered dangerous to him. He always thinks I'm gonna get raped or something. Now that I want to start biking to school because of my schedule, he says how there are so many cars that could hit me and so many people that could kidnap me. WHAT THE FCUK, RIGHT?! Ugh, I honestly don't understand him sometimes. I mean, he used to do this kind of sh!t when he was my age. I don't understand how it's any different. Is it because I'm a GIRL?! Ugh, so STUPID!
• I've been getting a LOT of mixed signals. 'nuff said.
  
• I don't want school to start! UGH. I feel like my summer's not complete! I want to live it up but seriously, I can't because there's only 4 days left!
• DISNEYLAND on Monday! Homeboy is coming with me since everyone I asked, can't go! Ahhh, whatever. As long as I go and as long as my brother has fun is all that matters to me right now. ahahaha.
• EGM's funeral is on Monday. I just noticed I have to miss it. Hopefully my parents tape it, in case it's being broadcasted.
  
• I'm excited for the upcoming services. You have no idea how much I need a spiritual upliftment. It may sound a little superficial because I'm typing this up on a blog but, I just need to get it out there. I've been feeling a bit lost lately and I think I could do better. I feel like I don't give my all when it comes to performing. My duty comes first but when it comes around to it, I don't think i do my best. It's time for me to change that, in anyway that's possible for me.

this blog is waaaay longer than I expected. Kudos for those who actually read this whole thing.

this blog is OVAH.

-dom.

"And Now I'm Crashing,

real bad, real bad, Michael Jackson."

-School starts in t-minus five days. I start Senior year in 5 days. Overall, my schedule is really chill. I'm taking AP Literature, Journalism, Econ/Gov, Computers, AP Stats, and Choir. I got to school at 7 and leave at 2. Sounds... fun? Meh..

-I don't know why I'm blogging right now but, Mr. Marciano made me realize a lot of things during our conversation tonight. It's really... eye opening for me. Consider it this way: I'm going to be taking a lot of risks from here on end. I just wonder how it'll be like when I have to overcome the consequences.

-Choir Camp was oddly fun. Besides the cheesy choreo, we sounded pretty good. I was off key a lot because I'm a newbie alto. I need to get my notes straight, that's why I'm sooo glad Percy is teaching us music theory in the INC choir. Oh, and we got our choir shirts today! Anyways, I'm starting to look forward to choir this year. [:

-Boy-wise: I don't know what the fcuk I'm doing right now. I think it's time to face the facts that I can't handle anyone's sh!t anymore. So, I'm just gonna do my own thing and do what's best for me, even if it ends up being single by the end of the year. Whatever, i'll get over it.

Sorry for the randomness of this blog.

this blog is OVAH.

-dom.

The Series of Unexpectancy.

First and foremost, thank you for all of the love and sacrifice that you have done for me, for my family, and for the church... Thank you for being our guide through this wicked world. You will forevermore be missed. Until the day of his return, RIP.

Yesterday was completely and utterly, unexpected.

Here it is in a nutshell;

• Slept over Jordan's house.
• Talked for an hour and a half with Homebeeezy.
  
• Played a few hardcore rounds of Tekken with Jacob and Jen.
• Baked cookies at 2 am.
• Played Hotel 626 on a packed queen size bed.
• Watched Final Destination at 4 with Nicole, Alexa, Jordan, Jr, Jacob, Angelo, Jen, Fel Jay, and I.
• Felt confused and tongue-tied.
  
• Got ready for the beach/fishing trip at 5:30.
• Watched everyone in the car fall asleep minus me and Jen.
  
• Got to Redondo pier/beach at 8 so Tito Orly and Tito Ferdie can fish.
  
• Went galavanting around Redondo.
• Found a spot on the beach.
• Got pulled away by Jordan and had an emotional yet revealing two hour conversation.
• Enjoyed another 30 minutes by the beach.
  
• Went back to check up on our fishermen.
• Chilled by the arcade.
• Left Redondo by 2ish.
• Swam at Jordan's house at 4.
• Chilled in the guest room, trying to figure out what to do. 7:24 pm <3
  
• Left Jordan's house at 7:45.
• Received THEEE COOLEST package from THEE COOLEST PERSON in the world, Gen Padua! <3
• Spent the next three hours at home, falling asleep in front of my computer.

As of right now, I have a week before school starts. I need to grow me some confidence balls, finish up my summer reading, figure out what I want, start registration for CFO Night, and a whole lot more. This week is going to be hell week, wish me luck.

this blog is OVAH.

-dom.